oh my have i neglected this blog...

it's been a bunch of highs and lows this month as far as exercise goes...I had a shift at work for the last few weeks making it difficult to workout in the mornings, which meant that I really didn't make it to the gym for the past two weeks. I tried to do other workouts, but it hasn't helped as I've gained three pounds. Although I lost four last week, so i'm still down one for the two weeks.

I'm looking forward to routine returning. And part of that routine will be to blog here regularly and keep an honest record of my successes or lack there of.

red red wine, go to my head...

"...they say whatever life throws at you, whatever emotions you feel, somebody somewhere has written a song about it..."

That's a line from tonight's movie. But in working on my as-yet-nameless, but totally fabulous lyrical challenge (which I hope you all will play, by the way...) I definately think that it's true. In love? you can chose from thousands of songs. Burned by love? Yep, thousands of songs with which to drown your sorrows. Felling happy - there are songs for that. Feeling blue? There are many more for you to choose from. In love with a boy who's in love with a girl? I think you can also find that...

I have no point to this, just that music really is the universal language...whatever you're feeling, whatever you want to say, whatever you don't even know you want to say, you can find a way to express it in music.

I'm on glass number two btw...

And I am a little bit of a lightweight when it comes to alcohol...

I'm just sayin'...

So, it's been a week since i last wrote in this - I need to do a better job of keeping this log because it is so helpful when times are tough and i'm wanting to give up to come here and see the progress. And if i'm not recording the progress, there's nothing here to help convince me that it is worth it, and things are moving in the right direction, even if it is slow and No you don't need that extra halloween candy and YES you do have to go to the gym this morning. So along with actually taking the ww stuff seriously (which is something i've been having trouble with, even though i've forked over plenty of money to them recently....), i'm also committing to writing in this far more often than i have.

Since last thursday's post:

went to ww last thursday and was down .5lbs from the last weigh in, which meant that i'd actually dropped 2.5 lbs since the saturday of trace's wedding, since i unofficially weighed in at the gym using the same scales they use at ww. so whoot. Also, and it didn't hit me until a few days later, i am now officially 40lbs lighter than my highest recorded weight. 40 freakin' pounds. that's so fucking amazing. Sure i have a long way still to go, but i'm 40 lbs lighter than I used to be. And those are 40 lbs i will NEVER EVER EVER SEE EVER EVER AGAIN. (do you hear me susan!?!?!) It also means i've lost 2lbs in the last month, which isn't a whole lot, but considering thanksgiving, halloween, fall chocolate consumption (as the days get shorter, my chocolate cravings get stronger...) and the fact that i really wasn't following ww at all, that's all movement in the right direction. And also, I've lost almost 30lbs in the last few months, and so my body needs to adjust. a plateau isn't a bad thing...and the scale is still in general moving downward. which is what we want...

skipped the friday workout - i forget why now...or did i? I don't remember. I don't think I worked out on friday, I know I didn't on saturday but I did clean the house. Then I had a halloween party but I used the snacks as my dinner and ate mostly veggies and protein based snacks, so I think I did okay. I don't feel like I pigged out anyway. Sunday both Mike and I felt awful - and it was a nasty day: the wind was howling, their was hail and rain and in general, it was just awful. So we stayed in our pjs and didn't leave the house. fantastic.

Monday did 33 mins on the elliptical, and tried one of the weight machines... Tuesday I skipped the workout because I wanted to be home early for the trick or treaters. Also, I had a highly elaborate costume and food for the lunchtime potluck (where I also rocked it and didn't eat anything with wheat, which meant no desserts. wahoo for me!!!) and needed the ride in. Yesterday did 33 mins on the elliptical.

Today I did 40 minutes on the eliptical using the crosstraining setting. I decided that since I'm not running anymore until I lose some more weight (my knees thank me for that decision - i've had no pain since switching to elliptical only) that I need to make sure I don't just fall into the weight loss setting mode and I need to push myself, so I increased my time today and after about 10 minutes I realized I wasn't peadaling as hard as I could and so pushed myself to 'run' at about 160 revs a minute vs the 140 or so I had been doing. I rocked that hard, and I'm so proud of myself. The goal is eventually to get to 1hour. We're getting there. I didn't feel utterly exhausted either, I felt like I could have kept going, but also at the 30 minute mark, there was the sense that "okay, I could stop now" so I know it's good that I'm mixing it up a bit - don't want the body to get too comfortable with just 30 minutes all the time. Or with the same setting all the time. Then I tried another weight machine. Since curves has pretty much dropped off my radar, I need to make sure I'm encorporating some strength training. I really should be going to curves a bare minimum of 2x a week, but I just don't seem to be making myself go. So I need to look at whether the weight room at the gym will work for me...

And, as a personal victory, and as a reminder that the number on the scale isn't the only thing that determines either my happiness or my acutal size: the fish net stockings that I bought last year at this time in toronto because I thought they might fit, and then couldn't get up past my knees...They fit. And they looked FABOO at halloween. So wahoo for me. And I bought them last year when I weighed only about 15 lbs more than I do now - not much more in the grand scheme of things. And certainly not so much more that just the weight loss alone explains why the fishnets fit. I am significantly smaller than I was. And i'm still shrinking!!!